Tuesday, February 26, 2019

So I Had this Dream


So I had this dream last night:

            I walked up to my church and there was a sign on the door that read, “Open Minds, Open Hearts, Open Doors: the People of the United Methodist Church.”  But when I tried to open the door it was locked.  I could hear people inside talking about something but I could not get in.
            As I walked away I saw a group of people sitting under a tree.  They were holding hands and crying.
            I turned and walked down the street to another church.  The door opened and I could sense even without words being said that everyone was accepted and affirmed for who they were.
            I knew I could stay but I was feeling very sad so I walked away.  I looked over and there was Jesus sitting on a bench by himself.  He was looking out as if he was thinking about something.  He looked sad and lonely.  Since I felt sad and lonely I decided to sit down beside him.
            He did not look my way at first.  I leaned my head against his shoulder.  A tear ran down my cheek.  Jesus reached out his hand and caught my tear in his cupped hand.  I noticed the scar on his wrist.
            He then put his hand on my head and whispered, “All will be well someday.”
            I woke up and realized that it was not yet, “someday.”

Saturday, February 23, 2019

The Church is a Rag Tag Army for Sure


The Church is a Rag Tag Army For Sure

            In one of the books I wrote, The Christian Skeptic: Caught Between Belief and Doubt, I used Martin Bell’s image of the Rag Tag Army to describe the Church.  I will share it below but suffice it to say that “my” Church is behaving like that army yet again.
            As a United Methodist pastor for 46 years I observed “us” arguing over and over again about the nature of human sexuality.  In the called session of our General Conference we will again have this debate.
            To put it as simply as possible, and it is not simple, one faction of our “army” insists that the bible is clear about all this and that the “practice of homosexuality is incompatible with Christian teaching and scripture.”  The other faction believes that, as it states in the first part of our Church’s statement on the subject, “that human sexuality is a gift from God.”  If that is so this group affirms that we are born the way we are born and “God does not make mistakes.”
            So here we go again.  With all the healing that this world needs we will again argue over something that really needs to be left alone.  It will not take rocket science to figure out where I come down on this. 
            What I know is that there are perversions and inappropriate behavior in both the heterosexual and homosexual communities.  As a pastor I spoke with gay and lesbian people who realized that they could talk to me “safely.”  Not one of them had an agenda or wanted to “win.”  They simply wanted to follow Jesus and know that they would be accepted for who they are without shame.
            Most of them had dealt with enough shame.  All of them clearly stated that this was the way they were born and that it was not a choice. 
            One of the big sticking points is the bible.  In my before mentioned book I have a chapter on the bible in which I state that the bible is not a “brick.”  It is more like a grandmother’s quilt.  A brick is made by pouring a substance in a mold and out comes a solid result.  The bible is made up of many traditions put together over centuries.  It contains many different “theological perspectives,” not just one.
            And yes some of those perspectives do not match up with each other very well.  They often compete for our attention.  A grandmother’s quilt is hand sewn and is composed of pieces from the various family traditions.  Great,Great Uncle Frank may have been a rascal but he was part of the family so grandmother put his “piece” in the quilt.  You do not necessarily have to like Uncle Frank to acknowledge he was part of the family.
            There is a line in Ron Howard’s movie, “The Grinch Who Stole Christmas,” when the mayor of Whoville shouts in desperation something like, “Why can’t we just get back to Christmas without all this Grinch stuff?”  Why can’t we be church without all this?
            I wonder what kind of church Jesus would attend….or given the way we sometimes act I wonder would he?  I want to be part of a church where all who want to follow Jesus will be welcomed without shame.  We are all God’s children…period.
            So I close with Martin Bell’s Rag Tag Army. (I got permission from Martin Bell’s widow to use this when I wrote the book.  The pronouns used for “God” are from the time he wrote this years ago.)
“Rag Tag Army”
I think God must be very old and very tired. Maybe he used to look splendid and fine in his general’s uniform, but no more. He’s been on the march a long time, you know. And look at his rag-tag little army! All he has for soldiers are you and me. Dumb little army. Listen! The drum beat isn’t even regular. Everyone is out of step. And there! You see? God keep stopping along the way to pick up one of his tinier soldiers who decided to wander off and play with a frog, or run in a field, or whose foot got tangled in the underbrush. He’ll never get anywhere that way. And yet, the march goes on.
Do you see how they marchers have broken up into little groups? Look at that group up near the front. Now, there’s a snappy outfit. They all look pretty much alike—at least they’re in step with each other. That’s something! Only they’re not wearing their shoes. They’re carrying them in their hands. Silly little band. They won’t get far before God will have to stop again.
Or how about that other group over there? They’re all holding hands as they march. The only trouble with this is the men on each end of the line. Pretty soon they realize that one of their hands isn’t holding onto anything—one hand is reaching, empty, alone. And so they hold hands with each other, and everybody marches around in circles. The more people holding hands, the bigger the circle.
And, of course, a bigger circle is deceptive because as we march along it looks like we’re going someplace, but we’re not. And so God must stop again. You see what I mean? He’ll never get anywhere that way!
If God were more sensible he’d take his little army and shape them up. Why, whoever heard of a soldier stopping to romp in a field? It’s ridiculous. But even more absurd is a general who will stop the march of eternity to go and bring him back. But that’s God for you. His is no endless, empty marching. He is going somewhere. His steps are deliberate and purposive. He may be old, and he may be tired. But he knows where he’s going. And he means to take every last one of his tiny soldiers with him.
Only there aren’t going to be any forced marches. And, after all, there are frogs and flowers, and thorns and underbrush along the way. And even though our foreheads have been signed with the sign of the cross, we are only human. And most of us are afraid and lonely and would like to hold hands or cry or run away. And we don’t know where we are going, and we can’t seem to trust God—especially when it’s dark out and we can’t see him! And he won’t go on without us. And that’s why it’s taking so long. Listen! The drum beat isn’t even regular. Everyone is out of step. And there! You see? God keeps stopping along the way to pick up one of his tinier soldiers who decided to wander off and play with a frog, or run in a file, or whose foot got tangled in the underbrush. He’ll never get anywhere that way!
And yet, the march goes on…

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

A Poem on the one year anniversary of the Parkland shooting


Bear Arms or Bare Arms
(a poem in response to the one year anniversary
of the Parkland shooting)

Harsh voices will again shout
across aisles of divide
Tears on one side
and a call for
“the right to bear arms
on the other

But then there will be
empty bare arms yet again
of
weeping parents
and the young who witnessed
yet another
slaughter
of the innocents

“It will not make a difference”
say those who hold
to that
ancient “amendment”
But those who now have
empty bare arms
that can no longer
hold
lost children
say through their tears
and grief,
“But can we at least
make a statement”

It seems our “rights” have
over-reached
our vision to
give up something
so that
we may again gain
some sense
and a heart that can be
broken
rather than a
mind that
can’t be challenged

Bear arms
and bare arms
and voices not
heard

Jody Seymour
February 2019